Anxiety

[Guest]

ive been a casino dealer in my country for 10 years and now ive come here and trained for a new game which i disliked during the training. my depression or anxiety started when i was about to start and i want to quit the job then. i workd for one week but it got worse everyday ( afraid to come for work). consulted a doctor and prescribed me zoloft for 3 days but i did not improve and felt nervous. that's when i stopped the medication and i thought to quit work . the following day depression was gone but still feeling nervous when i think of coming back to work. i cannot decide if i quit i might regret it or if i continue i might get worse. damn if i do and damn if i dont. i hate this feeling...

[lintek]

Hi "afraid of my work",
I don't know your name so am addressing you by subject title.
My name is Linda.
I too suffer anxiety but general anxiety disorder. I don't get panic attacks or feelings like I can't breathe or am having a heart attack.
I too feel very similar to the way you feel about jobs. I've been thru 14 of them in ten years.
If I don't like a job, I leave it. THIS does not work for me on my resume and now that I'm looking for a job again, I'm not getting alot of replies like I'd like to.
I want to give you some advice my older sister gave me a few years ago, because she saw the trouble i'd have at all my jobs. so I tried her advice, and I was able to keep a job for 3 years!!! the time went by so fast I couldn't believe I didn't leave or wasn't fired due to being out sick.

I tend to get sick ALOT on jobs. which my stress is causing my physical and mental health to decline.
we're overly sensitive to stimuli and people. peoples reactions to us, having to work too fast or if too much work load is placed on us at one time, we can't handle it, right?
that's the way I am anyway.
oh, I forgot to tell you what my sister told me to help me along.
she told me that a person can't really get to know a job till you're there about 3 months.
she told me to stick it out for at LEAST 3 months before making a decison whether I want to stay on it or not.
I haven't met anyone in person yet that goes thru as many jobs as I do.
I feel so demoralized and feel like such a failure.
I'm in such a situation right now and in a rush to get a job so that things can settle down in the home because I"m living with my husbands' parents. in the basement apartment. I was denied further assistance with unemployment for the time being till they speak with my former employee.
I now have NO in coming money what so ever, I have to totally depend on them to provide shelter and food and gasoline for our cars. I'm working very hard at finding a job and the mother said she doesn't want any free loaders. I"m cleaning her house, chipping in help to take her to her dr's apptns. cooking, doing the dishes, etc.
I can't wait till we can get our own place again. because my spouse and I lost our jobs a week part from another, we had to move out of the house we were renting for six years.
I feel like killing myself because i have no where to turn to. I feel like a trapped animal that has no where to run.
life is difficult enough without having an emotional disorder. I think life is twice as hard with what we have.
how many jobs have you been through?
I'd say that the job you're on is too stressfull for you. you may need something more quite to work at. where there's less people around you and less sound and less action. less demand on you.
what other line of work are you interested in?
it's just a suggestion for you.
I too have been in and out of therapy and am finally on medication and it's working for me.
I just found out I had a vitamin deficiency that was making me physcially sick. I thought it was all in my head from my anxiety and now that I'm being treated for my deficiency and my fibromyalgia, I'm doing much better and think I might be able to keep a job longer than 3 months if I can just get my hands on a job.

thank you for posting.
I wanted to reply to yours so you know that you're not alone in your predicament.
I'm there too.

sincerely,

Linda