Anxiety

[lintek]

Hi,
My name is Linda, I'm 47 yrs old, have been suffering with GAD practically all my life and didn't know this till I was finally told what it was I have. I was diagnosed by a hemotologist about 4 yrs ago.
I was going for therapy for 2 yrs., just finished up and was taking paxil for it, then went on prozac, and now finally I"m on zoloft.
I'm also on clonapin one every night before bed.
I am having a major problem with holding a job.
does anyone else here have the same problem?
I feel like a failure and can't for the life of me hold a job. if something goes wrong, I then harp on that feeling that hits' me right in my stomach like butter flys and then on I can't seem to feel comfortable at the job anymore. If the job is a fast paced job, which working front desk in a doctors office or a hospital, like I was, I become very aggiated and eventually become rude to customers and coworkers. I'll eventually tell someone off and then get over it, but the other person of course does not.
then there's the ignoring me stage, the person has no clue what I suffer with because I dont' tell my boss or anyone. they eventually find out but weeks or months later.
I've been thru 14 jobs in the matter of ten years.
thats' pretty sad, isnt' it?
I try so hard to fit in like everyone else that seems normal. that's the funny thing. I SEEM normal on the outside and everyone tells me they love me so much and how good I am at the work I do, but once stress becomes involved, WATCH OUT. lunatic linda surfaces.
I am at my wits end on this and just wish I could run away from life.
Of course I can't and must face this. I cant' just stop living.
I dont even know If I'd qualify for diasability which I did NOT want to ever do.
I am trying so hard to not have to turn to that method. I don't even know if they consider GAD to be disabling. it is for me.
I'm curious to see how others are with GAD.
if someone else has this DX, please talk to me?

I need help.

sincerely,
LInda

[UroDoc]

general anxiety disorder is manageable. a combination of medication and cognitive behavioral therapy can be very beneficial. sometimes you need to go through a couple of therapists til you find the one you fit with. you should see some changes after a few sessions otherwise you will need to find someone else. it sounds like you tend to become reactionary and have difficulty managing stress. therapy will work on these problems and hopefully help you become a highly functional individual. it seems like you are good at what you do. i am not sure if gad if an eligible diagnosis for disability but i do know that stress affects the body as well as the mind. for your overall health you really need to get help managing your stress. also some self help work such as yoga or meditation can be useful.good luck.