[Guest]

Dear doc,
My daily schedule begins with leaving my kids for school. I wake up in the morning just before their school hours or slightly earlier. I feel each day that I haven’t had a proper sleep and do not wake up fresh. I get up with much difficulty to drive them to school. Afterwards I come back and lie down again for a little while before making an effort to get up and go to work. I forcefully get myself out of bed. All the while I am thinking that I cannot do it and should give it all up and yet I have to and so I get up.
In the toilet mirror I see my frail body. The shower seems different from what it used to be. I used to enjoy my baths. Now it seems like an exercise. I then change, sometimes forgetting to shave and sometimes to comb. I go downstairs and eat my breakfast. Seven months back when I was not depressed I was eating a healthy breakfast of eggs and toast. Now somehow the sight of eggs turns me of. After a biscuit or two with half a cup of tea I begin my day. During all this time I am preoccupied with negative thoughts.
I reach work where their are two persons employed. I hardly talk with the other person. I sit on the computer. Type a few letters, play a few games on the computer to pass of time. I make contact with only a couple of individuals with whom I interact for five to ten minutes only. I then go of to collect my kids from school. After lunch and an hours nap I am back to work with the same schedule. From work I go off to my house and have dinner, watch a bit of TV and then go of to sleep.
This is my schedule day in and day out. I do not have any friends to whom I can talk too. I used to talk to my wife and confide in her. But now seemingly she has developed a reciprocal anger on my getting depressed and therefore I have stopped confiding in her. My only human contacts are my kids whom I talk to before they go to bed and that is for a brief period. Rest of the time both at work and leisure I am preoccupied by thoughts of depression alone. Those negative thoughts come in again and again occupying my hours of wakening. Sometimes I even wake up in the middle of the night with the thought that I am dying. My question is can I still overcome my depression with this kind of lonely, aloof life.

[Guest]

Definitely but not alone. I recommend that you seek professional help immediately including medication. See our site about depression and its treatment. Severity does not correlate with prognosis. You can be very severe and have a good prognosis with treatment.
[quote] Dear doc,
My daily schedule begins with leaving my kids for school. I wake up in the morning just before their school hours or slightly earlier... [/quote]