[sherry20]

Every since I've been a kid around 12 obsession has been a part of my life. I would tap everything twice with each hand. Two was my lucky number. If i didn't tap a even amount of time i felt i would die or lose an arm or something like that. If I didn't get on my knees and pray i thought my legs would fall off, because God would think i was lazy. My obsession grew as i got older, but i started to fight and won. Or at least i thought i did. Now i'm spend my time obsessing in my mind. I pray constantly. It's gotten so bad that I will pray when someone is around me also. I'll pretend like i'm doing something else, but I get on my knees and pray with my head down. If somone ask what is going on. I say my stomach hurt or some other excuse. I thought i made a deal with the devil. I know this sound stupid, but it caused me great stress. these thoughts pop in my head and I know they are not true but I can't shake it. Out of know where the thought that my mom would die came to my mind, so i spent time trying to make the thought that she would be alright pop in my head out of know where. I think i've did things, which i know i haven't. I obsess so much about these thoughts that now i cant tell fact from fiction. I thought i had hit someone with my car which i knew wasn't true, but that still didn't stop me from driving by the area. This is just some of what i go through every day. My obsession has taken over my life. I constantly feel sick. Constantly obsessing over my thoughts. I wake up with headaches. Go to sleep with headaches. What can I do to help myself fight my mind. How can you fight that. Please help someone.

[stulchinsky]

Thank you for participating in the forum. Sorry to hear about your condition. There is physician-developed and monitored information on treatment for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder on this website at the following link:
http://www.mentalhealthchannel.net/ocd/treatment.shtml

I hope this information is helpful. Physicians who monitor these forums respond to some posts but not to all, so please continue to post in the forum as you learn additional information.

I wish you the very best.