Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

[gebeanapug]

hey everyone. recently i found out i was pregnant. i am 32 and living unhappily with my boyfriend. please note we have been only together for 3 months. we knew each other for months before. since i have been with him my ocd has come out worse than in years. anyway, everyone around me wants to keep the baby. the only time i can think of keeping my baby is if he and i live separately but raise the newborn together. my therapist says that i am acting irrational. but i cannot stand to be near him. everytime he comes near me i have horrible thoughts in my head. i cannot sleep and eat and feel like i am jumping out of my skin. he is very religious and i am not and he keeps telling me that abortion is murder and he is always preaching to me which makes matters worse. we have been fighting everyday. he is divorced and raises one kid and the other child comes over to visit. the children seem to be fine since there parents arent together. i have thoughts of blinding myself if i ever had to stay in a relationship even though we are having a kid together. someone offer advice please.