Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

[4rivergirl]

I am still trying to understand how my mind can hide the knowledge and evidence of my childhood abuse. It seems so far-fetched that the severe pain I experience, as well as, the seizures may truely be dissociation and depersonalization.
Within the last 8 months or so I have started to remember events that took place in my life starting from age 2 through 9. I was mentally abused, as well as, physically abused by my grandparents and suffered mental abuse from my father & husband. The details came to me slowly and I wrote them down as I remembered them. Tears of pain, anger, and sadness streamed down my face as I tried hard to understand why these memories were cropping up now, now at age 55. Where have they been hiding all this time? My T says from what I experienced there may be more to discover as in sexual abuse or even MPD. I am trying very hard to remain postive so that I can face this and understand its possibilities. But frankly I find it all so hard to believe. I am hoping that others will be able to give me more insight into this disorder that I find very distrubing and frighting now.