Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

[UFOVictim]

I am 46 year old married woman mother of 1 child who is now 20 years old..My true story is a bit bizzare for most people. I dont expect anyone to believe me which is ok because i dont even believe it happen to me myself. Unfortunately it did, I now suffer chronic PTSD including: Anxiety attacks, phobias, OCD symptoms, physical stress ( stomach troubles), depression and flashbacks all in one package. I had lost my job, my first marriage and became withdrawn from social activities ( People) It all started when i was a child ( 7 years of age) back in 1968 on a hot sunny day when i decided to take a walk into the woods alone not to far from where i used to live to explore like most kids do. The woods were thick and shady I was pulling off branches and leaves away from my face, hair and body. It was a 10 minute walk..When i came out of the woods on the other side..I was shocked and stunned of what i saw ( SCREEN MEMORY) which I describe as a futuristic neighborhood..The houses and roads look well-advanced, extremely clean, colorful and beautiful.. The roads was not made out of black tar but silvery/white metallic cement that you can see the sun shines right off of it..The houses looked well-advanced with many huge windows, colorful roof tops and the street lights look different too.. I have never seen this before..I was only there for 6 minutes and there were no people around ONLY ME, the future houses and the road. I can hear a deep humming sound from the distance which to me sounds like ( An alive power box) I am not sure if that what it was. I felt lonely, afraid and a little bit lost.. I decided to go back into the woods to tell my mom..My mom did not listen to me and said, "Stay out of the woods" I had to stay in on that day because i wanted to go back into the woods to see that future place again for its beauty and to explore..I cried and cried feeling anxious and compelled to go back. The next day I snuck out and went back into the woods to find the future place and it wasnt there..It was GONE!. under regress hypnosis..The future houses and road i saw is a SCREEN MEMORY..it was actually a spaceship I saw which is silvery/white and shiny, with big huge windows with a colorful roof top. I was in shock and stunned staring at it approxmately 6 minutes..Under hypnosis I was actually immobilize (unable to move) and i was brought on board inside their spacecraft (Alien Abduction).. after that i had no memory what happened next.. but i was brought back 3 hours later in the middle of town in the woods 3 miles away from my home and where i was abducted having no memory how i got there in the (middle of town) in the first place. I had scratches on my body ( arms) I was walking home..feeling afraid, feeling a little bit lost and crying all the way home saying, "I miss my mother" after 1 hour of walking. I finally came home and my mom was upset and said, "Where were you? and what happen to you? I told her and said, " I was in the woods" and i proceeded to tell my mom the rest of the story but did not listen to me and said, " Stay out of the woods!!" You are late for lunch GO SIT DOWN AND EAT!!..My lunch was already on table cold for hours..I was felt compelled and anxious to go back into the woods to see if the spaceship was still there..my mom said, NO you are not going back to the woods..You're are staying in".. I cried and cried i was sent to my room by my mother and she shut the door...the door knob was a bit broken..I had no door knob in my room to turn to get out but the door knob was on the other side. All of a sudden the door knob on the other side fell down by itself...I panicked and starting to scream pounding at the door crying " Let me out im scared" my mother had 4 other siblings to watch while we were 1 year apart from each other..I was the oldest of 5 kids..While i was screaming to my mother..all of a sudden I see a human female apparition walking thru my wall next to my door that looked like my mother ( which i wasnt afraid) staring at me and i said," Mommy Mommy" and she said with out a voice but in my mind (telepathically), " Yes, Im here..everything is going to be ok"..I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and i see the human female apparition starting to fade away gradually thru the wall..I said " Mommy Mommy where your going?" The door knob was put in the female apparition is gone and my mom step inside my room..I was confused looking back and forth to the wall to my mother...kind to find out the female apparition that walk thru my wall was a nordic alien that looked like my mom..The nordic alien picture was found at the internet printed and there were striking resemblance between my mom's picture and the nordic alien..There is alot more to tell but i will stop here and finish the rest later...I had suffer re-occuring nightmares about the event from the ages of 7 thru 12..12 to 19 I was showing signs of panic attacks and OCD symptoms..20 until now i suffer phobias ( afraid of going outside, open or unfamiliar places, AgoraPhobia) fear of getting lost.
and fear for my safety ( changing locks, checking windows, watchful of my surroundings) fear of going to sleep and so on..I am still going underneath hypnosis and my husband knows nothing about what is going on with me because i am in fear of being laughed at and losing my marriage..I want to tell him but im scared right now...This will be it for now...Take Care and have a happy 2009!!