Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

[livingwith]

hi i’m GB and i’m an OC..do you think it’s easy to admit that disorder?NO..at first i don’t admit it..but as time goes by,as i read articles about OCD i realize i manifest the signs and symptoms.
i remember it all started when i was 13 years old.i was a freshman then.(1st year highschool)..i have this classmate of mine actually he was my seatmate,we were having this chat when i noticed him every time we talked about something bad like for example accidents,death,he goes t...Read the full article

[spellingbee]

Hello......yes I would say that is how I started out with OCD. The frequent hand-washing until my hands were raw in junior high school.....continues until this day but not as bad. I feel that if someone says something bad concerning something, I am not cleansed of it until I wash my hands. Or if I go to a hospital or somewhere where there are germs, even to the doctors office, but not dentists, I must re-shower when I get home. I do not count, or hoard things, but things must be lined up a certain way although I have gotten much better at that. Right now, I have panic attacks which I am controlling by meds, but am having a relapse of them lately, which is caused by my fear of open spaces, which I think is actually part of the OCD I just learned. I will not cross an open street unless I have someone to hang onto, which is very limiting to my life, or sometimes I use a cart or stroller if I have to cross the parking lot of a grocery store or mall. I tend to avoid going to places that do not provide carts to help with my problem. If I use the cart I feel "safer", I know this is an irrational fear but cannot sem to control it with the meds I have now. The fear of open spaces is consuming my life, I am trying to think positive and sometimes it works if I force myself and talk to myself that things wil be ok. Nothing is going to happen crossing a street or open wide area. If anyone out there has these problems of open spaces, please write and we can talk. I know I can't be the only one in the world! Thanks.